Nobody cares for this Deviantart account

I have over 200 watchers and it's no big surprise only like three actually seem to like what I post so honestly I think I'll close or deactivate this account along with my other ones because I've been reminded for this past week how horrid I am and I've been through shit as well as feeling like shit. And with nobody who actually really cares for my art, what is the fucking point?  I've posted over 250 deviations with little recognition . I've posted to groups, told big artists how amazing they are only to see my friends get all popular when I'm in the same fandoms and I do the same work. 

So yeah, I think the only reason I'd still have this account is to respond to my roleplay with but other than that I'm pretty much done.

Thanks to, I don't know, the three people who actually recognize me.

and literally, the only thing keeping me happy is getting as far away from the internet as possible and just roleplaying with Emily. I'm not kidding, that's the only thing making me happy right now

Honestly, if you guys actually cared about me, could you show me a little bit that you care?